I usually know what to say about anything and everything. I've been planning on updating this thing ever since the day I showed Hermione that wicked spot on the cliff that overlooks the lake just so
but now everything I could have said about that has gone right out of my head. Hermione and I are getting better and I missed being with her and...I dunno. I can't focus on that right now. All I can focus on is Harry, really.
Well, that's sort of a lie. All I can focus on is Harry and what I am to him now
. Me. His bloody blood protection!
I'm Harry's blood protection.
Merlin, I got the shivers just typing that out.
I don't want to believe it but there's just no way that I can't
not believe it. It all makes sense, what Hermione said.
I was really stunned when she started going on about it but then Harry started joking about and then I got to thinking about how wicked it'll be that Harry has
to come to the Burrow now and all that...
But now that I've had a good bit of time to think on things?
I'm scared that I'll muck things up and I won't be good enough to be Harry's blood protection. Harry said that I likely don't have to do anything cos his aunt never did and it still worked. And he told me that he feels safe around me, which made me feel good cos I feel safe around him, too. I've always felt like that, though. He's my best mate. Always has been from the moment we met at King's Cross and always will be, no matter what happens. He's never minded that I've always been poor (although Dad and Mum are doing better now since Dad got his promotion) or don't really have anything overly special about me like the twins or
Charlie or Bill. He likes me for me and that's really nice.
But what if just me isn't enough? I dunno. I'm likely being a berk. It's just a really big responsibility, being Harry's blood protection.
It's like his life is in my hands now and I want to hold it there carefully so he doesn't break but strong enough so I won't let anyone else in to try and break him.
I'll have to work on holding things better. Sometimes I forget I'm holding something important and I get distracted and then a bad thing'll happen.
I won't let any bad thing happen anymore.